Monday, May 02, 2005
Flamin needs to vent
My friends who gave me CoH have commented that I spend way too much time playing that game. Like Duh. So my spending time on the computer... or going over to their house to play has caused more tension than what I feel is correct. I thought Drama ended after college but Noooooooooo. It intensifies. sigh. Somy friends are pissy that I play alot... tension there. And I am not even going ANYWHERE close to relationships and my lack of a mate/ boyfriend. On top if it, my students are taking the World History Advanced Placement exam tomorrow. They are NO where close to being ready. Partly it's them but it's also my fault as well. I haven't been able to focus and been really frustrated with their inability to work independently. I realize that they sadly can't read my mind. Then again this year I am so burned with teaching that I really dont want to work. If they don't do well, it comes out of my performance review. ( education in California right now bites... ) The kids just took a national and state test... and I also know that they bombed. We had a vent session post exam.... and they missed some really basic questions. sigh. Stress at work is growing. I know I am in the right career. I might not be paid alot ( I do have 2 BAs and a M.Ed) but I enjoy my job. Except for this year. This year sucks. So I am stressed because I KNOW what they are walking into.. and I know I have not prepared them like I have done in the past. And since my job is so stressed I have taken that out on my friends who play CoH. So I am publically apologizing to Jose, April, Tommy, Mykal, Kris, Drew. Ok, thanks for reading or just skipping over this. Sorry for wasting your bandwidth on my shit.