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Whaaaaaaaaa-aaaaaaaaa-aaaaaaaa-hiccup-Whaaaaaaaa OMFG!!!! I swear can this get any worse for me???? I had typed this very long and emotional post, only to loose it in one keystroke. I'll try and recap it as best I can. I just went to a wake earlier today for one of my bar customers. He was 34, married to the love of his life, and had 3 children. His wife found him Saturday morning, he had passed away sometime in his sleep. He was one of our regular customers, and a big spender (GREAT tipper too!!) He was best friends with one of the owners of my bar, who is having an extremely hard time dealing with this. I ran into him at the wake, and he looked devastated. He told some coworkers and myself that it's just coming and going, but we could see he was hurting. This guy had been a baller- he owned a handful of bingo places, and a few bars in and around ENC. He always treated our staff very well, and overcompensated in tips if he got out of line. We all looked forward to he and his wife coming in every week or so. One of my coworkers, M, has been through something similar. She lost her sister to suicide almost 6 years ago, she was 17 when she killed herself. It had a HUGE impact on M's life, so she wanted to go today to show her care and concern for the family. We also wanted to show the support from the bar. He was 34!!!!! He had been out partying with his wife and some friends, went to bed that night, and never woke up the next morning. That could happen anytime, anywhere, to anyone. It hits pretty close to home when you start thinking that way. As we were leaving the wake, M said a few things that hit me really hard. "It's not truly going to hit her until she starts doing the things they were used to doing together. I have never seen a couple as in love with each other as they were." Well.......... I have! I feel that way about my bf. I love him more than anything in this world! When I got home from the wake, he was waiting with open arms to listen to how it had gone. I was really upset, but didn't want to deal with it then, so I told him who/what I saw and dropped it. We've been dealing with a lot of dumb things at work, and he's been at breaking point. Tonight he finally snapped, and ranted and raved to me for over an hour about all of it. I sat and listened to everything, but began to withdraw into my head and wondered about how I would be if I lost him suddenly. Then I lost it! It freaked him out terribly thinking he had said something out of line to me (but had not in any way, shape, or form). I know he loves me just as much as I love him, and we know we want to spend the rest of our lives together. (and that's not a load of bull). I guess all I'm trying to say (to anyone still left reading), is to treasure every day and your loved ones as if they won't be there the next day. Life is too short to be ignoring these things, because you won't get a second chance. (Why is it we can get philisophical at times like these?) I want to ask everyone to stop and think of those you love, can you deal with the idea of losing them? Can you accept the idea you may not have much longer to live? How do we function without celebrating the joys we do have, instead of focusing on what we don't? This goes out to all those affected by Katrina, we all know the losses they are dealing with in the aftermath of the storm. Remember to tell the one's you love that you love them, a nice big hug usually helps too!